Hi, Rantz family, I just need to get this off my chest. So I’ve been talking to this guy for like 9 months. We started as just friends, but we fought a lot — blocking and unblocking each other, even ending our almost 300-day Snap streak. Somehow, we always found our way back. We finally met in person (in front of my hostel), then later had another fight and blocked each other again. Fast forward — we randomly ran into each other a few days ago, greeted, and decided to start afresh. He’s always been asking me to come over, and I kept dodging it. But this time I finally agreed. I went to his place, we talked, and we ended up having sex. It was actually my first time. It wasn’t smooth at all; it was so painful, and penetration was difficult because I lied at first that I wasn’t a virgin during one of our conversations, but later told him the truth when he asked why it was difficult for him to penetrate. He didn’t believe because there was no blood. We had unprotected sex, and I wasn’t sure if he came inside me, but I suspected it.
He gave me a post pill immediately, but it was a brand I didn’t trust, because the pack literally had a warning saying “not to be used as remedy for condoms and contraceptives,” so I wasn’t okay with that at all. So behind his back, I went to get Postinor 2 later that same day for my peace of mind. Now here’s the thing — I ended up using two different brands of post pills on the same day, and I honestly don’t know if that was smart or safe. I just panicked. Since then, this guy hasn’t even checked up on me. Not a single ‘are you okay?’ after everything. Honestly, I feel used. I won’t even lie, I fucked up big time. Right now, I’m just praying I don’t get pregnant because I’m not sure how effective using two different post pills on the same day even is. If I get through this phase, I swear I’ll never have unprotected sex again. And please nobody should be mean in the comments section. I’m literally going through a lot right now.
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