My heart is full and I needed to let it out. There’s a guy I loved, let’s call him G. I didn’t love him for his money or looks. In fact, despite our religious differences, I loved him naturally, deeply, and sincerely. We were dating in our own way, but it was never consistent. Still, I kept hoping, kept holding on. Then one day, I opened up. I told him I was done with flings, done with confusion. I wanted something real that I could proudly call mine. And he said, “Now, I know I can’t be that man.” That statement crushed me and kept ringing in my head. What does he mean? It’s been over a month, we stopped talking. But the crazy part is, I still haven’t been able to get over him. I saw him recently, he greeted me like everything was fine, even tried to joke and play with me. But I ignored him like he never existed. Lowkey, I still love him so much. Not because he gave me money, because he didn’t. I just love him purely. Now I’m here, carrying a pain that’s hard to describe, trying to focus on my work and live my life, but my heart cries every single day. I don’t know why I love this guy so much. I was even blaming myself that maybe if I had talked to him when I saw him, maybe he’d have changed his mind. Sometimes, I wonder, should I text him? Should I pour out everything I feel? I love him so much. I’m the type of person that doesn’t easily fall in love, but once I do, it’s always extra. I can’t believe I’m in this situation and he doesn’t even bother to reach out or something. Should I text him? No, I won’t. Should I just forget about it and let it go? Should I talk to his friend about how I’m feeling?
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