I’m currently 27. I live with an elder sibling and this has been the case for most of my life, from my school days until now, and I need space before I die. It’s not like I don’t appreciate what my sibling does for me, but it feels like I’m exchanging my sanity for this whole luxury lifestyle. I can afford to get a place, but I’m scared to. I’ve been feeling su**idal lately because of my life condition and what I’m facing. I can’t even explain because my head and chest are hurting and I can barely see clearly because I’ve been crying, and I’m even crying while typing this. I’m just so tired. I thought maybe getting a friend would help, so I tried befriending someone who introduced me to her “friend” who was single. I didn’t even really like the guy, but I thought I needed the company as a distraction from my reality.
But we were quarrelling all the time until we blocked each other. Then he gave money to his friend (the girl that hooked us up) to give to me, and this girl later blocked me because I was asking for the money. That hurt me because even if I was no longer with the guy, at least the girl and I should have been cool. I was dealing with that betrayal, and then the war at home just entered a new level as I get woken up in the middle of the night to be scolded over something that’s not that serious. I’m currently talking to a guy who has been really helping with all the hurt, and if by any chance we stop talking, then I will just kee myself because he’s the only reason I want to wake up in the morning. Looking forward to his messages and talking to him makes my day. I’m doing everything to keep him, but if it goes south, then I wouldn’t have a reason to l!ve. Thanks for this platform.
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