I went through the comments and realized that a lot of people misunderstood me. Firstly, I don’t have a child and I’ve never been pregnant. I’m also in my final year in school and I stay alone, not with a man. Secondly, I met my man when I was 18 and he was 27, and we started dating when I clocked 19. He’s the only man I’ve ever been with all my life and this is my first relationship. He doesn’t even stay in Nigeria, it’s a long distance relationship. We only get to see each other December and January, and throughout this relationship he’s always dictating what I should do and not do. He treats me like his sister and talks to me like a kid. He dictates the places I should go and not go, to the extent I’ve developed a serious anxiety issue. Whenever I do something without telling him, my anxiety kicks in. December last year, I said I was not interested in the relationship anymore because of the way he treats me, and I left to go back to school because I couldn’t go home. He apologized and promised to always listen to me, but whenever he listens, he still finds a way to make it about himself. To be honest, I don’t think I have love left for him since that time, but he refused to let me go. He said to me, if he can’t have me, nobody will. It is so bad, he checks my reposts on TikTok and I will have to explain the reason why I reposted a video. There was a time I reposted a video that I can’t live with my boyfriend, that he has to be my husband. He said a lot of things, asking why marriage is so important. I reposted a video about a guy who said, do you love her or you just don’t want to lose her because she’s a good person. He confronted me about it too. Every time we argue, he’s always reminding me of things he has done for me and calls me ungrateful. At the end of the day, I can’t say anything whenever I want to talk so he won’t call me ungrateful. After the part 1 story I shared and we were having a conversation, I asked him a question about when do I get to live my life, and he said to me that’s a myth, that a lot of people will kee to have a partner like mine, that there’s nothing outside. My heart is so heavy and I feel stuck.
Also read: I Want My Life Back Part 1