I started dating my boyfriend in March 2023. In the beginning, it was all love. I really loved him, and things were going well. He used to spend on me and do a lot of things that made me happy. But along the line, things changed. He started having trust issues, always asking for screenshots of my chats on WhatsApp and demanding explanations. I became scared and confused because I didn’t know when or why things turned this way. Soon, emotional blackmail and manipulation entered the relationship. He started abu$ing me emotionally, and I no longer felt safe, but I still stayed because I loved him. I was unhappy, so I started looking for an escape to find peace. Along the line, I met a guy on Instagram. My boyfriend later found out, which caused a huge fight. I even changed the guy’s name to one of my friend’s names to cover it up, but he discovered the truth. He called me a cheater and refused to listen to my explanation that I wasn’t trying to betray him; I was just broken, searching for peace from all the emotional pain.
I begged him endlessly for forgiveness, even involving my friends, but nothing changed. At one point, when I was apologizing, he even beat me on my hand. From then on, the relationship became full of tears. I cried so much that I didn’t even feel like myself anymore. Then came my birthday. He got me a cake, but it wasn’t properly baked. When I tried to talk about it and suggested we complain to the vendor, it turned into another fight. That day, I ended up begging him again. He made me cry on my birthday. When I tried to plead with him while he was on a bike, he literally made me run after him until I fell and got wounded. He pushed me to the floor and humiliated me. Instead of celebrating my birthday, I was in tears and pain. Even before my birthday, I had already been thinking of leaving him. But after all that happened, it confirmed to me that I am not happy and not safe with him. The only thing holding me back is fear. I’m scared of letting go, but deep down, I know I need to.
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