Growing up, my siblings and I were barely allowed to interact with people. I’m from a well-to-do family, but my parents wouldn’t let us have friends or travel during the holidays to meet people. We got adapted to that lifestyle, and even up till now, I barely go out or make friends. When I got to university, I had freedom, but still, I barely went out or made friends. I just love being alone. My social life is zero. Then I met one girl in my 200 level, and we became friends. Whenever I want to get something, I just like seeking her opinion first because she is much more fashionable and outgoing than I am. If I want to dress up or go out, I seek her opinion first. Then we fought and stopped talking. Before she left, she made a statement: “I know the impact that I have made in your life and let me see how you will live without me.”
I didn’t take her seriously; I just brushed it off. I got into a relationship. I do visit him; let me just say that’s the only place I go, and I’m always excited whenever I’m going there because that’s when I get to go out and take pictures. I started buying things for myself because I prefer to save money than to spend it, but I started buying hair, clothes, fixing my nails, and lashes (please note that all of these were from my pocket, but that’s not where I’m going to). I started taking care of myself, taking more fine pictures, and all. When we started dating, he was fond of sending me pictures of his female friends, and they are all baddies, but he stopped when I told him he was making me feel less of myself. We later broke up, but he left saying, “I have added corrections and adjustments to your lifestyle.”
Ah! Again! These words really pierced through my heart, and I just keep wondering, is that how bad I am that everybody is just trying to fix and add adjustments to my lifestyle? And I’m not the type of person who enjoys going to the club and doing all these kinds of things, but when I see someone doing them, I don’t mind joining. Please, what can I do to make people stop seeing me this way? I just want people to stop seeing me as a lowlife that they can be adjusting and amending her lifestyle. I want to be social and outgoing too, but it’s not my thing.
Also Read: Ear Picking Addiction