So, I’m a girl in her early 20s. I’ve been in a 2-year relationship with a nice guy who’s very sweet—almost perfect, I’d say. But I don’t find him attractive; I’m attracted to girls, and I don’t want to break his heart. I’ve had these feelings since I was 15 in boarding school. A girl told my friends she had a massive crush on me, and it was mutual, but everyone thought it was just two cute girls fangirling over each other. One night, she told me it wasn’t as minor as they thought. She actually liked me, and I just laughed, but deep down, I felt butterflies.
We never acted on it till we left school. When I was 18, I was visiting my dad in the US and started talking to a girl I met. It was like heaven. She was so sweet and kind. She gave me a peck on the lips once, and I couldn’t breathe—no guy’s kiss has ever made me feel that way. When I came back home, we ended things, which was really sad, but we had to due to distance. No one knows about it, but I think about her all the time. My parents always talk about my dream wedding, but I know I don’t want that. I moved to Abuja and met a girl a few months ago.
She’s gorgeous! If you could paint a perfect picture, it’s her. She’s not from here, and she wants us to be more than friends, so it’s easy for her to say. But I don’t know how to leave my boyfriend for a girl. It’s not only going to break him, but it’ll break my parents too. I’m the only girl in my family. I really don’t know who to talk to. I’m scared. When I go to bed, I dream about her, not my boyfriend. She’s still in my head. When I think of life long-term, I see myself with a girl. I’m really confused. P.S. Be kind with your words, please.
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