I Still Miss Him

I’m 20 years old. There is this guy I met when I was in secondary school, in SS3. We weren’t dating at that time because he was older than me. When I was writing my WAEC that year, we started dating, but the relationship wasn’t serious from the beginning because I was a virgin and I also had someone else I was dating at that time. Fast forward to last year. When I went to visit this guy at his place (which wasn’t the first time), he would try to have sex with me by force. On this very day, it was different. It started as a play until he started dragging me. I thought he was drunk because I was trying to free myself from him, but I couldn’t. He used force to take my virginity that day. I was in pain and left crying. Later, he begged me, and I accepted to continue the relationship with him. I broke up with my boyfriend because he knew I was a virgin. Last year, when I got back from school, I went to see him again. 

This time, we had sex, and I got pregnant for him. That was the second time I had sex in my life. I told him, and we both agreed to ab0rt the pregnancy, which I did. Ever since I ab0rted the pregnancy, our relationship has not been like before. I tried talking to him about it, and he would tell me he’s going through a lot. This year on Valentine’s Day, I went to visit him. I spent two days at his place, then left on the third day. Since then, the relationship became worse. He would not text me, let alone call me. He knows how much I love him because there was a time I was drunk, and it was his name I was calling. He used to tell me that if I leave him, I am the one who will lose because he has nothing to lose. I can’t cope with his nonchalant attitude towards me, so I blocked him everywhere. The purpose of this rant is to ask: should I unblock him? I miss him after everything he has done to me.

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