There was this guy I had been seeing for over two years. We started with the talking stage; he messages me every day. If he doesn’t in two days, I should be worried. From the beginning, it was just a normal talking stage. Along the line, I grew to like him, and he likes me. Also, he doesn’t even hide it. The first two times I went to his house, nothing happened. I liked him more for that. After a year of talking and the third visit. In fact, I had to initiate the visit and sex. I was really lusting over him, not gonna lie. Well, that day, he lasted 2 min. My friends told me he must have been too excited or anxious because it was the first time he’d had sex with me. After that, we were cool; communication was still very good. In fact, I was hoping to see him again. Remember I said I was lusting real bad; many times we were supposed to see, it was like he was always trying to avoid it.
I had confirmed from a mutual that he was single, so I didn’t think he was doing that because he had someone. No, he didn’t. Anyways, I got to see him again 3 months later, and we had sex again. Well, he lasted 3 min this time, and he apologized, saying he was sorry it happened again. The third time we had sex again, he lasted for like 6 min, and that was because I made him do a style that won’t make him cum fast. Did I mention he’s always lusting after me too? Like he makes sure he comments & hypes me on every picture I post, even if it’s just my fingernails. He never calls me by my name, always calling me darling and sweetheart whenever we’re talking. Like I won’t even lie, he was the sweetest. Omo, I had feelings. If it wasn’t that I like defining things, I would have thought we were in a relationship. We acted like we were dating. I won’t even lie, I really wanted him to ask me out.
I was just there hoping someday he might, lol, because we’ve been together for over 2 years. My friends were always telling me to open up to him, but I said no. Fast forward to the main issue, I booked a massage for him on his birthday. The massage was valid for one month; he was always busy with work. He didn’t get to go for the first 3 weeks. So the week the massage was supposed to expire, he came to visit me in my house, and he said he has to go for the massage this week before it expires. He apologized and explained why he hadn’t gone since. So I was even telling him I want to go for a message too. I’ll have to make time for it soon, and he said we can even go the same day he’s going for his. I was happy because we would be in the same room together, and hopefully, I get to talk to him about us, lol (if I had the courage).
On the day of the massage, we planned to meet there at 5 pm. While I was dressing up, he texted me that he was sorry, he will raincheck because work came up. I just replied okay, and he was like, I’m sure you are going to kill me because you must be super angry. You know what? Let’s just go for it. I just told him to go to his work; that it’s fine. He apologized and promised to book another one for us because the one I booked for him was expiring the next day. That was it. I was still angry; didn’t even talk to him for 6 days. He texted me and noticed my reply was cold, and he apologized and told me he doesn’t want us to fight. I said okay; I let go. Two weeks later, I decided to gift the massage to a friend since I could reactivate it for a little amount of money. That was how I messaged them, and they told me it has been used. I didn’t believe them; I asked what time.
They told me 5:15 pm on the same day we were supposed to go. I called him to confirm because I felt they were mistaken. When I called, he told me yeah; he used it later at night that day. He didn’t bother telling me because we were yet to book mine, blah blah blah. And I made him know the massage people told me he went in by 5:15; he was like he would call me back. He’s at work, and we will have the conversation later. He lied because they told me he came in at 5:15. So all those times he was telling me we should postpone, he was there. I felt so stupid and mad; I was even trying to make excuses for him that maybe he had given someone and didn’t want me to feel bad. Later that night, he didn’t call back; I sent him a long-ass message telling him how stupid he made me feel, how he thinks I’ll be talking to him for two years plus if I didn’t like him.
Wo, I kuku opened up my feeling because I had nothing to lose at this point. He opened it and replied the next day, saying he was so sorry; it wasn’t his intention to hurt me. I read the message and never responded, I was so hurt. Fast forward to like 4 weeks later, I saw him at the club, lol. I was with a male friend; he saw me first. I was dancing with the guy; I just looked away. Unfortunately, my neighbor was at his table too. So while I went to the toilet, my neighbor called me, so I went to greet my neighbor. He was literally standing near my neighbor. I just greeted my neighbor and greeted one other guy I knew on the table (that one is our mutual), and I left. I did as if I didn’t see him, and he also didn’t greet me; he kept looking at me when I returned to my table. A few minutes later, I went to meet my neighbor to tell him that when he was going home, he should please call me so we go home together.
Me that I was already drunk; that was how I tapped him, and I was like hi. And he responded, and I was like if I didn’t come to say hi, you won’t even say hi. He was like, “ahh, is “Not like you would have answered.” I just said hmm and left; he also came with a girl too. Anyways, I was even thinking he would end up texting me. Well, it’s been 4 months, and we still haven’t spoken. All he does is view my status now. I even had an accident, and I posted; he viewed without saying anything. My question now is, what he did is forgivable? Do you think I should text him, or I just move on? Not gonna lie, I still miss him and think about him (he’s the sweetest & gentlest guy I’ve ever met, lol). What do you guys think? Please advise me.
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