I just need closure. So, I met this lousy guy at the gym and he likes me. I noticed, but I ignored because I am a very playful person and I am not ready to be attached to anyone there. I play a lot and I talk to a lot of people. He offered me gifts twice but I ignored. I knew he wanted to be a friend. So, fast forward to one day, he sent someone to me and I had to give him the go-ahead to give him my number. He messaged me but we rarely talked. Three to four days later, he asked to drop me off at home and I accepted. We talked and he requested for a date. I declined and he begged, so I fixed the third day for him. We met. He took me to the mart to pick some things I needed. I picked provisions and perfume and everything summed up to N60k.
We left and went to a lodge from there. I said I wanted a lounge, but he begged that he preferred a safer space. I accepted because I felt he’s cool, plus it’s my red days (period) We got there and I felt so comfortable. He ordered everything I wanted and treated me right. He talked about everything and how he wanted me and even things he would do for me about my business. I wasn’t moved because I am very hardworking, so words don’t get to me like that. So later, he started begging me if I needed anything at that moment, bla bla. I said I am fine and he proceeded to ask me to sleep over. I said I can’t, but he begged and I got tired, so I accepted (my biggest regret). He stressed the living h€ll out of me that night. I wasn’t expecting that because this man did not touch me at all throughout the day. To cut it short, after a lot of “leave me” and all, he succeeded.
He cut my waist chain, removed my pad and threw it on the floor, then had his way. In fact, everywhere was stained with blood, including my top. Now I have tried to move on but I couldn’t. He has tried to propose a date three times after then, but I declined. He’s not seeing what he did as a big deal. He felt it’s normal, but I am hurt. Sometimes I don’t have strength after seeing him. Sometimes I just want to shout. Sometimes I feel like slapping him. He keeps saying I am ignoring him, but I am dying inside. My energy is gone and I can’t stand him or anywhere he is. So, I am thinking of telling a friend at the same gym or having a talk with him. Maybe he will understand I am hurt. Initially, I wanted to bottle it up and move on, but it’s hard. I still can’t move on after two months. Please, what should I do?
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