This my story has been disturbing me all through. I’m having a restless night and have not been at peace with my conscience. I am in my early 20s. I have a serious boyfriend ever since I was 17. We have been dating and were happy together, not until he started his behavior. He is hot-tempered and on some occasions has b€aten me. Sometimes he also thr€atens me, but after everything, he will come back and start begging for forgiveness, of which I will forgive him and tell him to work on himself. But it continues to happen and the worst of everything is that he is too obsessed with me. He monitors my movements, he gets all my friends’ numbers, and sometimes he even asks them my whereabouts if he can’t reach me. He is good and loves me very well, but he doesn’t trust me a bit. So it happens that there is this friend of his and his coursemate that I’m close with. We are just close and vibe together. So it happens that there was a day I came back from a trip to school.
My boyfriend was not around and I was so hungry. I had to chat that my boyfriend’s friend up and asked him if he cooked so I can come and eat before I rest from my trip. He said he cooked and I started coming. Fortunately for me, he told me where I can meet him not so far from his house so we could go to his house together, of which I did. Though we spent a lot of time there because he needed to catch up on something before we started heading back to his house. Long story short, when we finally reached his house, rain started falling. I waited, and the time they use to lock our lodge gate reached. I couldn’t go. The rain was heavy and I was tired from the journey, so I decided to sleep over and go back the following morning without having any bad intentions. In the process, I don’t just know what happened. While I was asleep, he started touching me and I couldn’t resist, coupled with the cold weather. So I don’t just know what happened from there—we had sex.
The following morning, I told him that it was a mistake, but the truth is, there is a bond already there. He started catching feelings and I tried every possible thing to fight off the feelings, but it didn’t go. In the process, we started dating and he was treating me right, just the perfect gentleman I want. He has never laid his hands on me. Please house, my conscience can’t let me rest. I love my boyfriend and I still love my boyfriend’s friend. Please, I need advice. I noticed that recently sex with my boyfriend, I’m not enjoying it again the way I enjoy the other guy’s own. We have been doing this for close to a year plus and I don’t know what to do. House, please advise me.
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