My Rantandtalkz family, e don happen. I’m in a serious state of confusion right now, I don’t know why this is happening to me. I feel like I’m a good person and deserve the best in life. After dating my ex (he was my first boyfriend), I stopped giving relationships my all because this guy showed me shege banza. The funniest part was that I couldn’t leave him. Before you say it’s because of money, this guy never spent anything on me throughout the five years we dated (we started dating in my secondary school, plus our on-and-off till my 400lvl). In fact, I was the one giving him. He always claimed my father is rich and all that, so he can’t fetch inside the river. Forward to 2021, I found love with another person and decided to move on without getting over my ex because I don’t go back to an ex after a breakup and cheating is a no for me. My boyfriend was caring and all, though he didn’t have much, but he was trying his best for me. He didn’t really accept much from me.
But I never loved him, I tried my best, but it just wasn’t working. So, I broke up with him last year and met another new guy. Rantz family, I was so happy because I started loving this new guy and forgot completely about my first love. I saw my first love when I went home last December, and I knew I was finally over him. His parents stay in my parents’ street, so we do see each other on the road and greet. But the problem I have now is that this new guy has some red flags that I don’t think I can deal with. He used to casually say that he doesn’t believe in the Bible and all that, that he is still going to be an Ifa priest and all that stuff, and when I get angry, he says he is just joking. The last incident was when he sent me a video of a man saying bad things about the Bible, I was so angry. He apologized and promised never to do that again and started going to church and all that. He said he was just teasing me. This is the same man I’ve been dating for four months now, and five kobo I never see.
I’ve spent almost N50k in these four months, and I’ve promised myself that I’m not doing the understanding girlfriend thing anymore. But my friend that introduced me to him told me to calm down, he just broke for now, that he will still treat me well. The money part is not even my issue, though I want to know what it feels like to be taken care of by my man. But the Bible and Christianity issues are really getting to me because I love God so much, and the Bible means so much to me. I want to marry a man that fears God. I don’t know what to do because I finally love someone after all these years, and he loves me so much too. I’ve even met his parents within these four months. But I’m just scared about the whole religious stuff, and I’m in 600lvl, marriage is knocking on my door, and there’s no point in dating someone I can’t marry at this stage. Please, what can I do because my head don blow?
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