I’m really socially anxious. It’s so bad that I get panic attacks when I’m in the midst of people. It stems from thinking all eyes are on me, even if I can’t see anyone staring at me. When I walk past boys my age, I feel like I should get swallowed by the ground, and when I walk past girls my age, it seems like they’re judging me. I rarely go out, but when I do, it’s either I walk past people with a very strong gaze, or a few hands are pointing at me.
Sometimes people turn back to look at me while whispering things to whoever they are with. I go places with earphones and can’t maintain eye contact with anyone. Last year, a friend told me no one is looking and it’s all in my head. I don’t know if I’m the only one going through this.