Firstly, my ladies, please try as much as possible not to express your feelings toward a guy first, no matter what. Kindly quench that urge to salaye (explain). I loved this guy with everything in me. I did things that I had never done for guys in my past relationships. I am not the type to be expressive when it comes to sex, but with this guy, I became so free that I would ask for it even when he didn’t seem to want it. When we started, he complained about my sexual performance, but because of what I felt toward him, I worked on myself and became better—only for him to later use it against me, saying I like sex too much. Lol. I tried as much as possible to make this guy see reasons to be with me, but all efforts proved ab0rtive. He saw faults in everything I did. He wasn’t ready to correct me even when I was wrong; instead, he would ask that we break up. I would keep begging him and ask for another chance to do better. There was a day I saw his chat with a lady on his phone by chance (because I don’t know his password). I was so pained that I cried that day. He begged me, and I forgave him.
We continued our relationship until, a few weeks ago, he started acting so unavailable. Normally, we saw each other every weekend, but lately, he said he had a lot of work to do and that if I was around, I would be a hindrance because we would have s€x, and that would weaken him. (He’s a tech guy who works from home.) It’s been almost a month since we last saw each other. I complained about how much I missed him and asked if he didn’t miss me at all. He said he did, and I replied, “I don’t think so.” He responded with okay. I asked if okay was really the best response he could give, only for this guy to flare up and ask that we break up because I’m selfish and self-centered—just because I complained about his unavailability. Lol. But guys, am I really selfish for complaining that we haven’t seen each other? I don’t have anyone else aside from him. I kept my tabs closed and didn’t even allow any talking stage with another guy. Anyway, I am glad I could finally let go of him and not beg him to stay. Lesson successfully learned. Right now, I just want to finish my NYSC, get a well-paying job, and let God do His thing!