Hi guys, I need your advice on something. I and my bf have been dating for close to 2 years now. Honestly, when we started, I was so in love with him, I could cope with any attitude he gave me. I also was coping with his siblings’ mean attitudes. Sometimes they were mean to me and made it obvious they didn’t like me. They talked ill about my tribe every chance they got, but the love I had for my bf kept me going and I was happy to be with him. But as time goes on, my bf started offending me. He started treating me in a bad way, was always ready to tell me to leave the relationship despite knowing how down-to-earth I was for him. One day, he asked me to leave and said he was tired of me over something so little. I got angry and blocked him everywhere, and I really left him alone. When he saw I didn’t reach out, he reached out and apologized and rekindled things between us and promised to be better. But the problem now is I can’t let go of the hurt. I feel resentment towards him and his siblings now.
He cheats on me a lot and I always find out, but I don’t confront him because I know I don’t have the strength to leave him yet. His siblings have behaved really badly to me, and I h8te them for it. I don’t like being around them anymore because all I feel is anger towards them. Believe me, I’m a very sweet person, but these people are turning me into what I’m not. I have to pretend like I don’t care, act nonchalant like them, and I dislike them for it because I know this isn’t my type of person. My bf really feels I’m down for him and I’ll stay with him for a long time, but I have plans of leaving the relationship because I just can’t let go of the past. He has offended me, though he apologized, but I don’t know why I still feel resentment towards him. Should I let go of the relationship or talk things out with him? But I don’t want him to see me as a terrible person because of the things he has done that I’ve kept in my heart.
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