I am writing this with a heavy heart. I am 27 and a mom. I am a really terrible mother, and I h8te myself. I can’t stop thinking about this. I have cried and hit my head against the wall because I feel I did something bad to my child out of anger and pride. I went to make my daughter’s hair. I stayed from morning till evening because the lady was busy. When she finally did the hair, though it wasn’t as good as I expected and the length wasn’t long enough, I told them to increase it. The girl she left the hair for to finish it was sent on an errand, leaving me with my baby’s hair unfinished. I was getting angry, but I kept calm.
My sister’s baby, who started her hair after my daughter, finished before mine, and my child was still sitting there until the madam sent someone to complete her hair. My daughter said she wanted to pee, so she went. When she came back, she said she didn’t want to do the hair anymore. At first, I just threatened to cut it. I don’t know what came over me, but I cut all the attachments and loosened my baby’s hair. I feel terrible. I brought her home and did the hair for her myself, but I still feel very, very terrible. I just wish I had been able to control myself. I feel like I showed the world that I don’t care about my child. I want to die.