Growing up, it wasn’t rosy, especially from a broken home. We were just moving because each parent we stayed with might not be able to afford rent, and they’d kick us out. First, it was my dad. We didn’t have where to stay; we were staying with his sister and family before my mom came to pick us. It wasn’t easy with three kids because from there, she wasn’t doing well again in business. When we were staying with my dad, every weekend we’d go to her shop, and she’d buy us provisions that would last us till the next weekend and still give us money. Then, she also paid for our school fees. But when she came to pick us, our dad never did any of that, so the whole responsibility was on her. Then, my dad got a job outside Lagos, and my mom was not doing so good, so she went and dropped us with him. He was working but was not able to take care of us, so he had to give me out to someone. Omo, I suffered sha, but I finished my primary 6. Seems my mom was doing well because after a year or two,
she came back to get us, and this time it was final because they sacked my dad. They didn’t pay him for some months, so he went to cause trouble, and they had to fire him. My dad is a nice man sha, but he’s a woman b€ater and a drunk; that’s why my mom left after so many things she experienced at his hand. So, my point now is, all these movements made my schooling not stable. After they fired my dad, he just gave up and traveled to his village, where he went to be useless till old age now. I didn’t even finish secondary school because my mom too; her shop closed, and we had to start hawking to survive. I stopped at SS1, but I really did want to finish school myself because nobody in our family did. So, in 2017, I wrote WAEC, and I failed. I wrote NECO in 2019, but it wasn’t still good, but I got C lower on almost all the courses. I prayed and cried because I wanted to have a degree, but people were saying if you don’t have money for school, girls go into pr0$titution just to be able to afford school fees because then, if I saw 5k-10k as of 2017-2020, it dey do me like gold.
That’s how hard it is. So, I just gave up, plus my mom became sick, and we didn’t even have money to go to the hospital to find out what’s wrong with her. Even with sickness and pain, if you see the heavy load she still carried just to hawk. I started seeing money small small; I don’t even know how, but we ended up in a useless quack hospital in Enugu because they didn’t even find out what’s wrong with her, and they went for operation. I was in Lagos, had to hustle my a$$ off to get the money for the operation. I wasn’t even wise then, sent the hospital part payment, and that night while operating, she died. I’ve gotten to a place of not having money to now having tens of millions. How it happened, I don’t know. Now, with all the millions in my account, I can’t even touch it because I think I’m still scared to ever go broke again. I’m living in a very dirty space, and not like I can’t spend millions and get a new place, but I’m scared. And yes, I’ve dropped rants here before. I’ve tried and done so many things: learned sewing, trying to go into tech and stuff.
E no get wetin I never try, but nothing is working out. I don’t even know what to do, and I don’t want to end up regretting or going broke ever again. I still want to get a degree; I don’t know if an online university course is advisable. Many people asked me to invest in land in my last post, but the scam in land now is wild. I know of someone that spent more than N20m on land just to find someone building on it, took it to court only to find out that the owner sold that same land to six other people before running out. A lot of scams now in land. My money just dey bank dey waste; to even touch N100k inside like N40m dey fear me, and I know it’s just trauma. I’ve tried doing so many things now that I can because I’ll be 25 soon, and I don’t want to end up useless. I need something doing; I’m too scared of my future. I don’t want to ever experience not having money again; the thought of it even makes me sick. Please, I need advice.
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