I don’t know if it’s normal, but I don’t enjoy sex at all. I always try to avoid it. Before I started having sex, I used to think I’d be a very sexually active person with a high sex drive. My first time was last year with my boyfriend, who’s also my only body count. The experience was honestly disappointing. All I felt was pain and very little pleasure. I assumed it was because it was the first time, so it wasn’t nice, but a year later, I still didn’t enjoy it at all. It’s not even that my boyfriend’s D is small; it’s not. It’s actually big. I remember measuring it, and it was above 6 inches and thick, so my body was the problem. I don’t feel pain again, but it’s still not amazing. I feel like sex is overhyped. I can go a year without having sex and won’t be bothered. This is sometimes an issue in my relationship. My boyfriend complained that I never initiated sex and thought maybe I was cheating. I’ve never thought of cheating on him because I know he’s not the problem; it’s me.
I had to apologize and explain to him that was because I didn’t enjoy it. Sometimes I feel bad about this because like most men, he has a high libido and I’m always not in the mood, but I’ve started compromising. Honestly, sometimes when I’m ovulating, I get h0rny, but when I remember how my sex is, my body will relax. I don’t masturbate or use sex toys, but I’m thinking of trying sex toys. I always read stories of people narrating their sexual encounters, and it always sounds nice and all, but when I do the do, disappointed. I’m even ashamed to say this, but most times I fake moan. I’ve never cum in my life, not even squirt. My boyfriend thinks I squirt, but I know that’s not squirt. I’ve decided to try sex drive pills; I don’t know which one yet, then see how it goes. Is there anyone else like this? I’d like to know if this is normal, please, and if there’s a way to kill this feeling. I also want to enjoy sex.
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