I don’t know how to start, but my mum and dad are separated, and my mum changed completely… Well, kind of. She’s loving, but the way she switches sometimes, I still think she hates me. I feel like it’s because I look like my dad, I don’t know. She will talk to me kindly, and the next minute, she’s talking about how badly behaved I am because my dad isn’t here, but she’s nicer to my sister. She has been so emotionally unavailable, and she doesn’t care how I feel. I was suicidal at a point, and she told me that I was selfish, I should go and kill myself, and I ruined her plans.
I wept so much, and I was so down, but she didn’t get help for me, and I decided to heal on my own. Sometimes, I think it’s my fault that my dad left, and I always feel left out. I just want to live my life on my own terms because I have been caged all my life, and it’s time to break free. Please, I need advice on what to do because I can’t stand the verbal and emotional abuse anymore, but I still love my mum and my sister because they provide everything I need, and I know that they are always there for me.