Last year, in 2023, I made some mistakes of giving in to the wrong guys. The first one happened in September, the guy and I started dating, though I was feeling skeptical about the whole thing, but later decided to give it a trial. To cut it short, he ended up stopping texting me after the sex. I didn’t even push for it, I deleted his number afterward straight up. The second guy, oh, I did not make it easy for this one. So we started talking in November, he seemed serious, and was all lovey-dovey and caring. So I decided to give it a trial. HAD I KNOWN. I spent the weekend at his place in December, and we ended up having sex. I wanted to confirm if he just wanted the sex all along, and then boom, we were playing, he was on his WhatsApp, and I saw he saved my number with my name and a fire emoji. I saw another number saved with “Babe” and love emojis. At that point, I knew I could not take him seriously. Now my ex from 2022 is back. I decided to give him a chance since his begging was never going to end.
Even after I blocked this guy everywhere, he still found a way to contact me. I decided to take him back, given that the two guys I met recently were just cocky. Guys out there nowadays are the worst of the worst. Though I and this ex have had sex before, we went on numerous dates within one week, later he came to visit me at my place, and after a week, I went to his place too. Here is the thing now: I get scared of having sex. I don’t know why. I really wanted sex with my current boyfriend so badly, but my fear had gotten the best of me. I don’t know why I’m scared, thinking he’s going to leave after the sex. We have had sex multiple times before, and he still strived to get me back. It’s either we’re having sex, and all of a sudden, I get up for no reason, or I cut the whole thing short for no reason. Now my boyfriend is asking why I’m like this now because he does not even get to cum before I stop. I don’t know why this is happening to me.
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