I used to be in a relationship where I sincerely loved the guy, although it was a long-distance relationship and we did not see each other. After about a year, I met someone else, we became close friends and we kissed during one of my down moments. I just couldn’t keep it up with my distance relationship. I was scared I had hurt him and wouldn’t want to marry him because I cheated, so I decided to end the relationship out of fear. I later told him why I ended it after months and he was like why did I leave just because of that and there was nothing he could do about us again. He included that I didn’t love him for leaving him just because of that.
I was pained but decided to move on with life because I was still stuck emotionally with him. I wasn’t talking to my close friend that I kissed again after what happened between us. Now, I’m currently in a new relationship of about 2 months and I’m seriously scared history might repeat itself again which I don’t want. I’m not promiscuous. I don’t just know how to go about it so I won’t have to cheat or disappoint my partner again. I’m really scared and it has been affecting me, each time I show my partner love, I just hear something that says I will mess up again. It looks as if I’m mentally down.
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