I’m 25 years of age, and being in this relationship is the biggest mistake I’ve ever done in my life. At first, when I was with him, I thought that he was God-fearing, kind, and gentle and that I’d met the man of my dreams. Now that we’ve moved in together, it’s been the worst years of my life. We’ve been living together for 2 years now, and the emotional abuse I go through, I can’t explain it. He’s so aggressive, violent, and manipulative. He doesn’t always believe he’s wrong, always ready to blame the other person for any issue in the relationship. I thought I loved him, but the more I go through this abuse, I hate him so much that I could kill him. He doesn’t know I don’t love him because I do well to pretend. But I’m pretending because I need to make him pay for what he has done to me. He has drained me mentally; I’m now a shadow of myself. Before you judge why I am still there, I met him when I was vulnerable, so he took advantage of me and asked me to move in with him in hopes to marry me.
I’m not ready to marry, and even if I was, I can never marry this abuser. He doesn’t deserve love at all. The relationship is not worth it. The only reason I’m still in it is because I must pay him back in his own coin. He must get what he deserves. Sometimes it’s good to live with a person to know who they truly are. I don’t wish this man on my worst enemy. He deserves to die single. On top of everything, he’s so ugly. Ewww, I feel like I was jazzed because I’ve never been with someone as ugly as him. No one should come for me and say it’s because of his money because this is the stingiest man in the whole world. He spends money like a woman. I can’t even afford a single thing for myself. I actually thought I loved him, but it was just infatuation. He will suffer in my hands. Mark my words, Benjamin. It’s just the beginning, evil man.