While I was about 3–4 years of age, my mum, dad, and my elder sis were sharing just a room then, and my dad didn’t stay with us always because he was always out for work in another state. My mum always had a lot of clothes to sew, so she was always busy. So when we closed from school, my mum always told our teenage neighbor to pick me and my elder sis up from school. When we got home, she would bathe me and my sis and then take me to their house, which was next to ours, and lock their sitting room door, lay me down on the chair, and start rubbing her genitals against mine while pinning me down with her whole weight, and that put me in a claustrophobic situation. She did that for years, and along the line, the same thing happened but with a different neighbor opposite our room. She did the same thing, and they were doing it till we moved out of that house. After we moved out, I found myself exposed to pornography and started masturbation at my teenage age, which I thought was fun but was actually destroying my whole life because I didn’t need any woman with me anymore.
Even if I had one with me, I wouldn’t feel so much for her because I was so addicted to masturbation until 4 months after my 25th birthday last year. I was able to break out from the addiction of masturbation, but now I just can’t see myself with a girl because I can’t socialize with them. My friends laugh at me because they barely see me with a girl, and it’s hard for them to even understand what I’m going through because they just laugh over it. I just hope the world raises awareness for masturbation because many young people are facing it but don’t even know what to do because they think it’s fun.
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