I’m a 21-year-old girl and honestly, I’m so insecure about my height. The last time I checked, I was 174 cm — about 5’8.5 feet. But sincerely, sometimes when I look at myself, I feel like I’m taller than that. Back in secondary school, I was taller than almost all the girls in my class. I remember adjusting my walking steps so I could look shorter anytime I was with my friends. It got so bad that people started complaining about the way I walk, not knowing I was deliberately doing it to shrink myself and make myself look comfortable when walking with my friends. Now that I’m in uni, it’s still the same thing. I’m the tallest in my circle of friends and almost the tallest girl in my department. It makes me really uncomfortable, especially when I meet guys, whether online or physically. I’m always scared of being taller than them or hearing those annoying comments like “Ah, I didn’t know you were this tall.” It hurts so bad, but I just laugh it off and pretend it doesn’t bother me. Another thing I hate is that I can’t even wear heels. As fine as some shoes are, I’ll just walk past them because I don’t want to be taller than everybody in the room.
And truth is, as much as people say ‘men love tall girls’, me I’ve not seen where it works for me o. All my friends are in relationships, it’s only me and my long legs left behind. To be very honest, I’m always jealous of short girls. I wish I was like them. They look so cute, they can wear anything, and it’ll suit them. Nobody ever complains about their height. Me, I’ll just be looking at them and wishing I was short too. And to make matters worse, I have small breasts. It’s something I’m very insecure about too. I just hate the combination. Tall girl with small breasts — like why? The thing pains me sometimes but I’ll still pretend I’m okay with it so nobody will notice I feel this way. I don’t usually open up about this to anybody, but it’s really been weighing me down lately and I just needed to let it out here. Thanks so much for reading.
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