I dated this guy for a year and 8 months. We loved each other and everything was amazing, even though we had our ups and downs. But with time, everything changed. He started to h8te me, and I could literally see the h8te in his eyes anytime I called, came around, or even when I texted. I didn’t get positive responses. He was always eager to end calls, and all, until I found out he cheated. Then, obviously, he played the victim and even went as far as crying and begging, but I forgave him (biggest mistake). Then, I noticed things became worse in the relationship, and I couldn’t continue, so I ended things with him. I was so heartbroken because I really loved this guy with everything. Don’t get me wrong; at the first year, he was nice and loving, but everything changed suddenly. I took out time to heal and stay away from any form of relationship for months and have been celibate for almost a year now because I need to clear my head, heart, and focus on my finances, academics, and mental health. Thank God everything has been going well and I’m better.
So, recently, one of his “girls” reached out to me to tell me how she knows me and hopes I’m not with this guy anymore. She told me how he always body-shamed me, talked badly about me, and even went as far as saying I have health issues—that’s why he finds my body irritating and he doesn’t have sex with me anymore. Lol, all this to get nyash from another girl?! I was sad, and honestly, I’m not even sick. I’m a beautiful, fair-size 12 lady with a nice, curvy, healthy body. Now, this new year, I got a call from him apologizing and saying he needs my forgiveness and that he’s sorry and wants to make things right. Mind you, this guy was in a relationship the whole time we broke up, and he told me how he changed, didn’t cheat, and regrets not treating things with us the same. He knows he did wrong and wants my forgiveness, but I’m just confused. Why did he decide to change and be a better man for someone else, yet I wasn’t enough for him to change for? Why was it hard for him to be good and loving yet he’s willing to go the extra mile for another lady?
He didn’t hesitate to make me feel worthless and stup!d all the time we were together. Now, he’s saying we can be friends, and I’m like, how can I be friends with someone I once loved deeply? Someone who looked me in the eye, lied, and manipulated me into believing I was the problem, yet he was just being a D? And I’m supposed to be your friend and forget about everything like it never happened? Omo, I just came to rant, jare.
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