I met this guy on IG early last year. I was single, and he was too. We connected so effortlessly, he was sweet. He’d send flowers during our talking stage, plan trips, and order things randomly online for me. I felt like I finally found the one. We started dating, and everything was beautiful, only for him to suddenly change. I didn’t do anything (I asked). I’ve cried, talked to him, sent paragraphs, begged, but it was like a dream. When we are together, I feel so alone. The look in his eyes is no longer affectionate. Even getting hugs from him is so hard, this was somebody who couldn’t keep his hands off me. When I get tired and decide to move on, he’ll come begging, and I’ll take him back f00lishly.
He’ll change for some time and go back to default. I am literally a shadow of myself these days. I cry and cry, feeling stupid because why is such a beautiful girl crying over a man when there are so many men asking me out seriously? I used to be a hard girl, a queen of detachment, but now I’m stuck. He’s manipulative and gaslights me whenever I try to raise issues but will always say he loves me. I’m just tired of the highs and lows, I’ve never been in this situation. I’m smart enough to know that I can never do forever with such a person. I just need tips on how to feel better because this pain is too much. I’ve deleted our videos, pictures, and chats. Thank you.