When I was 13, I dated this guy who was 21. He said a lot of sweet things and really manipulated me. One day, he told me he wanted to marry me and made me promise I wouldn’t break up with him. I was naive and agreed, even swearing on the Quran with him. My parents found out and confronted him, accusing him of taking advantage of me because of our age difference. We ended up breaking up, and I felt disgusted whenever I saw him afterward since we lived on the same street. Now, at 22, I realize that was my longest relationship, and since then, I haven’t been able to maintain any stable relationships. They usually last only a month or two, and I often notice that guys lose interest in me suddenly. I see all my friends in relationships or situationships, and here I am feeling left out. I can’t help but wonder if that oath I took with him is somehow causing all these issues in my love life. I definitely don’t want to go back to him, but I’m just feeling stuck and confused about everything.
