I feel the craziest pain of my life right now. My girlfriend just ended our relationship of 4 years 3 weeks after our introduction and marriage plans are already in place. She feels no remorse about this or the shame she just brought upon me and gets rude to anyone who tries to reach out to her on my behalf. I totally accept I messed up and couldn’t control my manly ego. We had a heated argument online, not a physical fight though, which resulted in both of us exchanging words and it went so deep. At that point, it was all cruise to me, but she digested it and shared it with friends and colleagues who gave insights. A few weeks later, she started threatening to end the relationship. I got so scared I involved my parents, family members, her friends, and almost everybody to plead with her, thinking that was going to make her calm down and have a rethink.
But she claimed I was embarrassing her, which in the end nothing reasonable came out of it. I have tried meeting her in person on several occasions; most times she ignores me, but sometimes she keeps assuring me we’re good and just need space and wants to pray and get the right answers from God. This back and forth kept happening for 6 weeks, which I wasn’t getting comfortable with anymore and decided to fully get my parents involved. But she kicked against them and even blocked them. My dad came down to Lagos and invited her, but she didn’t show up. She promised to visit them in IB when she came over and still didn’t show up when she traveled. I innocently decided to reach out to her pastor since she claimed she was seeking the face of God, and she got furious about this and claimed I was disgracing her. She claimed she finally got her answers from God and finally broke the relationship and blocked me on all socials from reaching her.
This is a girl I went all out for just to prove a point to, and I got carried away in it and lost myself in the process. I have begged and begged to the point everyone around me now knows how weak of a man I became to her and yet to no avail. To be honest, she was the best thing that ever happened to me and everything I ever wanted in a lady, but at this point, I’m so tired I have no single energy left in me to keep fighting. I badly want to forget this girl for the hurt and disrespect she has brought upon me and my family after weeks of an introduction and just move on. I put my life and so many other things on hold for this relationship, and yet it went south. Now my parents are so angry and feeling disrespected and want me to end everything with her, but moving on is killing me. Please help me. I’m gradually losing my sanity and having suicidal thoughts at every slightest chance I get to think of her.