I am dealing with low self-esteem. I don’t know how to come out of my shell. I always feel like I’m not good enough for any man s£xually because I don’t know how to give a BJ or ride a man. I have never ridden a man or given a man a BJ in my entire life because I find it very irritating. The thought of it alone makes me want to puke. I don’t know if something is wrong with me. Could there be other girls going through this, or is it just me? I don’t know if I’ll ever find love because people say if you don’t know how to ride or give your man a BJ, then it will be difficult to keep a man in this generation. I don’t know what to do.
No matter how hard I try, I just don’t see myself doing it ever. Because of this, I always turn down any man that comes my way because I’m scared of getting hurt. I feel I won’t be able to satisfy him sexually, and he might end up looking somewhere else. I feel like I don’t belong to this generation, even though I’m just in my early twenties. This thought has been eating me up. I don’t think any man will accept me the way I am because most men prefer girls that know how to satisfy them s£xually. What if I get married in the future? How will I cope? It’s draining. I pray I meet a man someday who will accept me this way.
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