I am typing this with tears, I swear. Omo, my boyfriend is a nice person, and no! He didn’t hurt me, but I’m going crazy. I’ve been single for a very long time because my last relationship was abusive, so I still have a little PTSD. I took my time to heal because I wouldn’t want another man to be a victim of my trauma. Sometimes last year, I decided to date someone else. We didn’t get to click well before he traveled out, but somehow I fell in love. I couldn’t pretend again. It wasn’t a problem for me because my dad has been telling me he wants me to further my education in the country my boyfriend traveled to, so I felt I could hold on. Plus, I wasn’t sure I wanted to be intimate with anyone yet. So it was an advantage for me. But it’s been hard, I miss him every time.
I start tearing up sometimes because he’s still trying to settle, and the time difference isn’t favoring at all. I am so weak with him and vulnerable, and it makes me look so stupid. He’s really trying his best, I won’t lie. He’s always apologizing, but I’ve been finding it hard to understand that he’s in a foreign land and he’s trying to settle. I go to work, and I still find it hard to understand him. I’m tired! I’m scared! I’ve been tearing up since morning now because he hasn’t been stable online. He had an issue yesterday, and he told me what happened, I know it’ll take his time, but yet, I’m still angry. Like I’m always overthinking rubbish. It’s like a different world exists in my head. Please, people in long-distance relationships, please, how do you handle things like this? Thank you.
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