I met this girl three years ago. We started dating after a while, but I’ve had multiple failed relationships due to my exes cheating on me or being into hookups. This really killed my trust for women. I’m 26, and she’s 25. She’s very nice, she has come through for me a lot, and I really appreciate that. I tell her my worries, and she always tries to bring positivity into my mood. But my trust issues got the best of me. I didn’t trust her. Whenever she told me she was going out with her friends, I’d think she was with another guy. Or when I called her and she didn’t pick up, her excuses and explanations wouldn’t matter—I just thought she was cheating on me. I told her most times that I didn’t trust her, and she’d get upset. When she did, I felt there was no need for her to get upset if she wasn’t truly cheating. She prays for me. I didn’t really do much for her like that, and I feel maybe that’s one of the reasons why I thought she was cheating on me.
We had an issue four days ago when I was on a call with her and heard a guy’s voice in the background. I thought she was with someone else, only to find out later that it was her neighbor’s kid—who is much younger but has a mature baritone voice. It’s too late now. She broke up with me after lashing out at me and then blocked me everywhere. It’s not my fault, really. Women cheat a lot, so I got blinded by doubts and didn’t see the rare gem before me. She praises me a lot, teases me, and we fight a lot too. I really miss her. I’m really down, and I’ve been having s***idal thoughts since morning. She knows me better than anyone and cares for me a lot. I didn’t know she’d flare up and take things to the extreme—to the extent of ending things with me and even cutting off contact. Please, always cherish any woman you see as worthy of your love. I’ve lost mine, and I feel so lonely right now. No one to talk to, no one to gist with. She’s my gist partner—very intelligent. I really miss you.
Our time together was and will always be the best. Our sex, our gists, our fights, our deliberate snubbing—I miss it all. God, I really miss her. Please, guys, if you haven’t caught her red-handed, quit being too obsessively insecure. Not all men cheat, and not all women do either. I just wish she could get back with me, even if just as friends. I don’t want to lose her. I know you read Rants too. Please, forgive me. I’ve learned my lesson the hard way, and I want you back. My mom and dad are beginning to suspect we’re not together anymore. I don’t make as many calls as before, and my mood has changed too. Please forgive me and pick up my calls. I miss you so, so, so much—the way you act and talk like you’re my mom. I’m really sorry. I miss your touch and your rebellious attitude. I used to complain, but I’d do anything to see you act them up over and over again.
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