I’m 22 years old, and yesterday my very first relationship came to an end. I had never been in a relationship before, even though I planned to start one when I turned 20. But when I was 18, I went through something horrible—I was raped—and it made me shut down any thoughts of being in a relationship. There was a guy who started showing interest in me when I was 20, but I didn’t feel ready and was still trying to heal from my trauma. This year, I finally felt like I had healed enough to give love a chance, so I decided to be with him. He turned out to be everything I had prayed for, but I was the one who couldn’t stop overthinking. I always doubted his love and questioned everything he did.
I never told him about my past trauma because I was scared—this was my first relationship, and I didn’t know how he would react. We were together for six months, but yesterday he broke up with me. He said he needed space, even though he still loves me and wants to be with me. He just couldn’t handle my overthinking and how I would jump to conclusions. Now, I’m heartbroken, and it feels like I’ll never try to be in a relationship again, at least not until I’m 30. If anyone knows how to heal from past trauma and a breakup, please help. I’m really struggling right now. Thank you Rantandtalkz family.
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