So guys, there’s this guy (I can’t even say if we’re in a relationship or not). We were at some point but he’s fond of this thing called ‘ghosting’. We’ll be cool for months and all of a sudden he disappears. Sometimes because we had a little fight or he was going through stuff or any other silly reason, then he comes back a few months after apologizing, telling me that was his coping mechanism. He even made a statement recently, he said, “Out of sight is out of mind, and out of mind is out of existence”. Mind you, the reason he gave for his disappearance this time was because he wasn’t cool with our relationship being distant. This has happened about 3 times and again now! I’m really over it. It’s fast becoming a habit which I can’t deal with.
Now the issue is that I can’t get over him just because of his ‘bed game’. Confirm 6 inches and more, sef 😄, that satisfies me to the core. He’s the biggest I ever fucked and the sweetest, sef. But his character isn’t the best for my mental and emotional health. Now I’m in a state of dilemma, I don’t know what to do. Yes, I know I’m done with his nons£nse ‘on and off’ behavior but that big D 😍? Ah, I’m not sure I can let go of it just like that. And it’s going to take a while before I can even meet someone that’ll match the vibe or better sef. Make I no lie sha, low-key, I’m still in love with him but his attitude is just a big turn off! Another problem is that I get addicted to whoever I love so bad that I overlook every one of the red flags just because I love them.
A the same time I find it very difficult to cheat. I’m not even attracted to any other person as long as I’ve got someone. I’ve got a couple of guys that are even ready to commit, and I know some that are damn serious about it but the only person in my head is my Big D, 😂😂 ahhhh. And my last relationship was both emotionally and mentally draining. I had to take a 2-3 year break before this one and this one is also screaming toxic in another language. Maybe I’m the problem or maybe my choice of men is 😭😭😭. I don tire! It’s dumb if I ask y’all if I should accept him back because common sense tells me it’s a stupid idea but the D and the fact that I love and I’m addicted to him. 🤦🏾♀️
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