He was supposed to be friends with benefits (FWB). He treated me so well that I caught feelings. He treated me well for a year. I have known him, and I have told him with my words and even with gifts, but still, he doesn’t want to take it further. He kept rejecting me, although he had never once treated me badly. He treats me with respect, and gives me money and time. I see him more than his girlfriend. I have tried to hate him so I could just leave him alone, but I kept going back. Sometimes I stop talking to him for like a month, but I still keep going back. I always give different excuses just to see him. Whenever he does something hurtful, I usually cry like a baby. I will still go back after crying because I like him so much. I have shown him so much love, but I really wish he could see how much I like him. I even asked him if he could start treating me badly so I could stop liking him. I am tired. People who don’t have emotions don’t know what God did for them. I really wish to stop liking him. Hard girl, hard girl—I’ve done shameful things for FWB, and now I’m the one people will see in an “I can never fall in love” post.
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