When I was little I experienced abuse from a church uncle at the age of 8 and it didn’t stop till I was like 13, no one knew about this aside from my sister that almost got raped by that same church uncle. To cut the story short, I find myself wanting to watch porn and afterward masturbate with the thoughts in my head. I hate it so much because I feel guilty afterward and it hurts me because I don’t know or when all these started. I don’t know how it got to the stage of me wanting to watch porn and masturbate. I barely do this but whenever a thought just clouds my head about it, I just do it and I know I have sinned. I am seriously working on this but I need to at least tell someone how I feel and how this makes me really sad. Secondly, because of my experience of the abuse, I have to fake moans because I have never enjoyed sex by any guy and I’ve not been with more than 2 in my life but I just wanna experience what it feels like to have sex.
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