I am in a serious dilemma right now, and I would like everyone to share their opinion. After I lost my 5-year relationship, I decided to move on after 1 year. There’s this guy I’m dating now, he loves me, which I know, and I love him too. But the main problem here is that whenever we have sex, he doesn’t like using protection. Fine, we both went to the hospital and ran some necessary tests, and we are both free from disease and are compatible. Whenever we are about to have sex, he’s always telling me that he can’t use a condom for his baby (me), asking if I’m too young to carry a baby. I tried explaining to him that we had just met, we didn’t even know each other too well, and I didn’t know if I was ready to give birth yet.
Meanwhile, I’m not really ready, but he wants to pin the pregnancy on me. So, I tried talking to my gynecologist, asking her to place me on birth control pills or injections. She advised that I go for an implant since I’m still young and haven’t given birth before. I risked it because I didn’t want to get pregnant and then start aborting it. I’ve aborted before in my previous relationship, and I’m still asking God for forgiveness. As I’m talking right now, I have this implant on my arm, but I didn’t let him know. For the past 3 months that I’ve had it, I’m now looking ugly, with a dark face because I’m a fair person, a big belly, acne all over my face, and unnecessary mood swings.
I barely see my period, and I used to be very slim, now, I’m adding some funny weight. My gynecologist smiled and said all these were normal, and I will be fine after 6 months. But the funny part now, is my boyfriend is giving me attitude, telling me that I’m no longer sexy, that I’m looking ugly. It’s not even as bad, I still go to the gym and use my skincare products too. Please, what should I do now? Should I go and remove it, or should I patiently wait for the next 2 months to be alright? However, he stopped talking to me and stopped picking up my calls. Well, I’m fine and I now see it as a normal thing for guys.
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