I am an Alpha Female, and most of my relationships ended because of that. I am 23 and have only had 3 past relationships, and all I can remember is that it all ended with them because they thought I couldn’t be controlled. I’m strong-willed. I am not gonna be a submissive wife, but I try so hard. I swear inside of me, I really want to be a soft girlie girl, but I end up not being. They say I am overly independent. I really want baby girl treatment, but I end up not wanting a man’s help because I feel I can do it on my own. I dey struggle oo. I can be on 2 to 3 jobs at a goal, but they think I make my money illegally. Now my relationship which is approaching 2 years is at risk. The only guy that has managed to stay with me this long, maybe because it’s a distance relationship, and I so much love him. I don’t see myself loving another. They just want to manipulate, and when you refuse, they break up with you.
Gosh, how do I change this trait of mine? I wish I could pretend. I wish I could mend or paint words. I wish I could be softer and more gentle like a lady should be. I wish I could keep ladies as friends, but they are distracting, and my past experience with them is hell, and all these are my problems. Mind you, I am a very lively and interesting person to be with, and that’s even the only reason he still keeps me. I am tired, I swear, help me oo. Give me advice on how to change these flaws of mine. I am the first child and only daughter in my final year. Mum is already asking me how far, ahhhaaa how far with marriage plans when I can’t even keep a relationship? How do I tell her that the guy I told her about is no longer interested in me? I hate myself for this. Most times I just wish I was softer.
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