I fell in love with my hookup customer turned sneaky link from the depth of my heart. I was willing to change for him which I did and I’m so glad because even if we didn’t end up together, I was willing to change for someone I care about and I made it happen. I’m now proud of myself, I have got my business, I no longer sleep with men for money, I work hard and when things get hard I cry to God. I fell for this guy because I think he likes me, not because he gave me money or because he knows how to fuck. He has a small dick and he doesn’t know how to fuck I have.
Also, I have never in my life asked him for money. He is too proud and he is not all that handsome, he dresses well and that is one of the reasons I like him. We hooked up, he paid me, and I left. After that, we started seeing constantly, if he gave me money, I would take it, but when he didn’t, I wouldn’t ask or act crazy. We were constantly meeting up and he’d say I love you, kiss my forehead, and comment ‘you’re so beautiful’ on my pictures.
He randomly texted me one day and took me to the cinema which meant something to me. I know I wasn’t supposed to feel that way but all that was an affection to me. Not until I posted my friend on Snapchat, I didn’t know how they ended up fucking and she knew we fucked because she told me he said she shouldn’t tell me about their affairs and he was so serious about that. I don’t like fucking the same dude as my friend for future purposes, so you can’t fuck my actual boyfriend/my man and give me an excuse that ‘but we’re used to fucking each other’s guy’, that is why I don’t do it.
I do give my friends any dude I don’t like or have interests in. So now that they are fucking, it just doesn’t sit right with me and it broke my heart. I tried not to think about it but whenever I see this my friend it just hurts more. I want to forget about it, please I need sincere words of encouragement.