Shame wants to use me and bath. So there is this group in Instagram about girls hanging out and stuff, and before you get admitted to the group, you’d fill a form. Apparently I didn’t know you’d get profiled. Do you guys know this girl didn’t add me to the group? I was worried so I told my friend to try and join. That one na waka about, like she takes really good pictures for the gram. Aesthetic pleasing pictures. Can you guys believe she got added to the group today? I was so so embarrassed. The crazy thing is I have more money than her, but obviously I am not that materialistic flashy person, so my pictures are very subtle and calm. Infact my money doesn’t show on my body no matter how hard I try. Just imagine Toke Makinwa (before she bleached and all, her throwback). Definitely not my fault, I don’t know how to pose for pictures and all. I really wanted to join because I was looking for where to be going out. I am in my early 30’s, I don’t have friends here in Lagos, my friend is not in Lagos, infact the friends I have, we hardly see.
So loneliness creeps in sometimes. Gosh I am so embarrassed. I’m trying to make myself feel good by saying maybe I didn’t submit the form well, but that’s a lie. I’m very sure I filled and submitted. I genuinely didn’t know this girl was this classist. I feel so bad for myself. Asin I am so embarrassed. Or is it because I am short? My friend is very tall, light-skinned, infact she traveled to Ghana this year, but the way she took pictures and posted, you’d think she traveled to Seychelles. Meaning I am not really as hot as I thought. No wonder no one toasts me on Instagram. If I say I am not sad, hurt, and embarrassed, I am lying. I am hurt, sad, and embarrassed. Like extremely.
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