I just want to rant. I’m so shattered right now. I was in an abusive relationship for two years, but I summoned the courage to leave and decided to stay single for a year. Then I met a guy at my place of work. I didn’t like him at first, but he portrayed himself as the most perfect and romantic man. I asked if he was single; he said he was very single. We got talking, and eventually, I fell in love and thought he did too because he treated me right. I didn’t have to beg for the bare minimum like attention and the rest. He also tried his best to provide for me. He shared his phone password with me, but I didn’t see the need to go through his phone. One day, I did and found out the girl he claimed was his ex is someone he’s been in a relationship with for eight years. I confronted him, and he completely denied it, making me feel like I was crazy. I let it slide, thinking it was all in my head or that he would change, but he didn’t. He would lie about traveling because we live in the same city, but he didn’t travel. Communications always drop anytime he claimed he was traveling. My instincts were right; I went to his house unannounced and found her there. I acted cool and left. He didn’t apologize until after one week. I agreed to talk. Yeah, I know I’m stupid for letting him manipulate me again and accepting him back, but things didn’t change. If I call him, he’ll say I’m disturbing him, but he’ll call me when he can. All this keeps happening, but as I said I loved him. I read chats of him professing love to her. I didn’t say a word because I thought I stopped loving him and was only there for the benefits. But no, the love is still strong. I respect, love, and support this guy. I treat him like a king. I’ve been loyal to the core, but something happened again, and I feel like I might die anytime soon. He claimed he traveled, as usual; I didn’t believe him, so I went to his house to clear my doubts and saw them again. I don’t know what men really want. Why did he ask me out when he knows he’s not over his ex? Why did he make me love him just for him to treat me this way? I’ve been crying because I put my all into this relationship.
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