Hi rant family, I am a 22-year-old lady with sex issues. I started having sex last year and that was with my ex. We always had issues when it came to sex and I must say it’s one of the key factors contributing to our breakup. Sex is so painful for me. I can’t even make myself open my legs and take it. It’s just too painful. I did a lot of research and thought it could be vaginismus. When I was 17 years old, I almost got raped and it has become a very traumatic experience for me. Anytime I want to have sex with my ex, fear won’t let me open my legs and if I allow him, I wouldn’t let him do it for five minutes because of the pain and struggles. I always made it look like he wanted to rape me. It’s not a conscious act to be honest. It even got to a point that he couldn’t take it anymore. He had to suggest seeing a doctor, but we later ended things. Now, the thing is I just started seeing someone recently. I love him so much and to be honest I would say he is cool as well. The first time we tried having sex, it was like a survival of the fittest. It wasn’t even entering at all. This new guy’s D is way bigger than my ex’s own.
His D is almost like the ones we see in porn movies. We tried the second time too and it was still the same. He wasn’t mad about it though. I was even the one acting mad about it because I was actually ovulating. I told him maybe I needed to see a doctor and he said it’s not that serious, so we should keep trying until I will be able to take it. He said when he and his ex started dating, she also couldn’t take his D, always saying it’s too big, but as time went on she was able to adapt, so we should just take it one step at a time. I am surprised he wasn’t mad about it to be honest because I know most guys would have flared up in that kind of situation. Now, it’s not about him again. It’s about me. What do you think could be wrong? I want to enjoy sex too. I don’t want to lose this man because of poor sex life. The last time I saw a doctor, the doctor tried to rape me instead.
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