In this life, it is really good to choose your self first before any other person. I dated this girl for almost two years and I came out with the purest intentions ever. Anything she needed I gave to her with ease, not looking back, but what did I get in return? Constant disrespect and disappointment—I was in a relationship where communication was so poor, but in spite of all that, I still gave it my all. But what did I get back? I’m too boring, I don’t know how to communicate, even told me to my face that she chooses her friends before me.
The last part that hurt me is that I was there for this person back to back, but what could come out from her mouth before the new year started was that she wasn’t in love anymore, that I’m not the first person she thinks of if she wants to talk to someone, that she hardly thinks about me except her family members ask after me. I was so pained and hurt listening to someone keep telling me she sees a future with me but all of a sudden falls out of love. Her excuse was that she isn’t feeling anything… well, this year, all I wish for is to be a better person for myself and put myself first in everything I do.