I was in a relationship with my first love, and before him, I hadn’t slept with any man. I was a virgin and wanted to keep it that way till marriage. But he pressured me so much, and sadly, I gave in. Fast forward to months later in our relationship, he gave me his phone to log in, and then I came across explicit messages he was sending to other females. He was asking them for sex and all. He was cheating. I felt very betrayed and confronted him about it. He tried denying it, but I wasn’t having it. So, I left the relationship. Three months later, I started noticing some grey/whitish spots on my genital area. I became really scared and tried to ignore it, but it multiplied. Then I went to medical professionals, and it was confirmed that I have genital warts—a symptom of the HPV virus.
I was so sad and down because I never expected I would have an STD. He was the only man I ever lay with, and now it has led to me having this. I just want to say I feel like it’s the end for me. What man would want me with this? The doctors said it’s not curable. So many things have been going through my mind. I’m depressed. I don’t know what to do. I want to find a cure. I’ve been praying so much to God. Please, if anyone knows what could help remove the warts and get the virus out of my system, please tell me. I know it’s a delusional thing to say, but I’m really desperate. My ex is somewhere living his life, and here I am with an infection I got from him, scared to get into a relationship again. I just don’t know what to do.
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