Y’all should insult me, say whatever you want to me. I need to get my senses back because it’s like I’ve lost them. Me and my boyfriend have been dating for almost three years now. He loves me a lot and provides for my needs, takes very good care of me. But last year, he cheated on me. I left the relationship heartbroken, I was depressed and miserable. During the break, I met a married man (sneaky link). I just wanted to use him and pass time to help me forget about my boyfriend. But along the line, I fell in love with this sneaky link. My boyfriend later came back to apologize, saying he wants me back.
Even though I told him I was already in love with someone else, he insisted that I give him a second chance. So I accepted him back. We started dating again. I told him that I’ve broken up with the new guy, which is a lie. I’ve been cheating on my boyfriend with this sneaky link because I love him so much. Before we broke up, I was a loyal girlfriend. I never cheated on my boyfriend, not even once. I was calm and respectful. But ever since I got back with him after the breakup, I’ve changed totally. I insult and disrespect him, I pick fights with him at every opportunity. I’m no longer the sweet, respectful, and calm girl he used to know. I feel miserable and empty with him, I don’t feel anything for him anymore. Whenever he touches me, I feel irritated.
I don’t let him kiss me. Whenever he wants sex, I always complain that I’m not in the mood or that I’m tired. But when my sneaky link wants sex, I can never say no to him. He fucks me whenever we meet. He fucks me raw because he loves raw sex, but I hate when my boyfriend tries to fuck me raw. I always insist he use a condom because I feel irr!tated by him. Whenever my boyfriend has sex with me, I always imagine it’s my sneaky link on top of me. If I don’t imagine him to be my sneaky link, I won’t be able to stand him on top of me for even a second. I’ve tried to stay away from my sneaky link so I can stop cheating on my boyfriend, but it’s not working. I don’t know what to do. I feel sorry for my boyfriend because he always begs me for sex, meanwhile I give it freely to my sneaky link.
He has fucked me more than my boyfriend because I can’t resist him. I give him access to my body whenever he wants, but it’s not like that with my boyfriend. If it weren’t for the fact that my sneaky link is a married man, I wouldn’t have gone back to my boyfriend because I just love him so much. I’m literally obsessed with him. I’ve told my sneaky link that I want to break up with him several times, but he has refused to let me go. He’s making it more difficult for me to stay away from him. It’s not even because of money, and it’s not because of the s£x either because I’ve never really enjoyed s£x my whole life. The pleasure and joy in his face whenever he’s inside of me just give me so much joy.
That’s why I can’t say no to him when he wants sex. I want to let him go, but my heart still wants him. How do I love my boyfriend? How do I allow my heart and body to accept him back? He caused it. He made me this way. If only he didn’t cheat on me, if only he didn’t leave me for another girl. Now, see what he has caused. He lost the good girl he had. I want to go back to the way I used to be, but I don’t know how or what to do. My heart and body want my sneaky link. It’s so hard. I’m messed up. Please help me.
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