I curse the day I discovered that my hands could make me cum. My clitoris has never rested since then. That’s not even the problem, but I feel it’s affecting my relationship with God. I now feel so unclean, and since then, it feels like my life has bent. At first, in the first month, I started, and the kind of bad luck that came over me… I felt maybe it’s just a coincidence, but later on, everything was just normal—not great, just normal. I was seeing money for my day-to-day life, but not like before I started. Now, I’m praying for God to help me with what I’m expecting. Since the beginning of this year, things have been so good, and everything on my list has been ticked—business, materials, everything I’ve prayed for.
Now, the biggest of them all is about to happen—a shop and an apartment. But I feel this masturbating act and not being able to connect with God might just spoil everything. I’m scared. How can I stop or balance it? Let’s not even talk about post-nut clarity—after you cum, you start to regret it. But the problem is only I can make myself feel that way. I need that house, business, and connection with God back.