I met a guy in January last year. He was an amazing man that every girl would love to have as their partner. We dated for about a year plus. I’m 24, and he was 30. We started dating online for 5 months, and when it was time for us to meet up, I told my parents that I was going to my boyfriend’s place to see the guy I had been dating for over 5 months, but my parents didn’t allow me to visit him. They were scared, so I told him about it, and he said no problem, he would come over instead. To cut the long story short, he came to my parents’ house, and they both saw him. They were so happy to see him, just like I was.
He lodged in at a hotel, and we had our first sexual encounter. A month later, I found out I was pregnant, so I told my boyfriend, and he said he would support me in any decision I made. Unfortunately, I aborted the pregnancy because I wasn’t ready; I was still schooling. Many months passed, and we were both happy together until, on the day before my birthday, my boyfriend passed away. This made me so down and depressed. Not long after, my boyfriend’s family called me using his number. They asked if I was pregnant for their son, and this question made me cry bitterly.
I felt so guilty for aborting the child I had with him. Even my mum asked me the same question, and I was unable to tell her the truth. This has made me down for months. No single day passes without me feeling guilty about what I did. Some of my friends and family told me I should be thankful to God that we weren’t married yet, but I still don’t know what to do anymore. Should I thank God or ask God for forgiveness?
Also Read: My Ex Hasn’t Moved On