I just want to rant about my five-year-old relationship. There have been ups and downs since the second year of the relationship. This guy would cheat on me, beg me to forgive him, which I would, and then he would end up doing it again. It has now become a habit for him. At first, I thought I was forgiving him, but I realized it was because I couldn’t bring myself to leave the relationship. This is how it has been up to this moment. Recently, we had an argument, and this guy slapped me thrice in a row. Lol. If anyone had asked me years back what my dealbreakers were, I would have mentioned cheating and abu$e, either physical or emotional.
Deep down in my heart, I know I can’t marry him because I’ve not been happy in the relationship, and I’m certain I won’t be in marriage. These days, anytime I see him, we could be having a nice conversation, all smiling, and the next moment, I’m angry and bitter because I have flashbacks of everything that has happened. He wants us to get married, but I know it’s not worth it. I’m ready to end it soon. I just pray for the strength to scale through. I know it’s going to be a difficult time.
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