I’m hurt by my past mistakes. This is how it happened: while dating my boyfriend, now ex, I had 3 abortions for him. It’s not like he insisted on me getting rid of the pregnancy though. I just had to do it once I noticed I was pregnant for him. I would tell him and then go for the abortion. The reason is that he is a violent person. He beats me up over any little misunderstanding, something we should just talk about and settle between ourselves. He would beat me up. He has a hot temper. Although he is generous and caring, I won’t deny that. He cheated on me almost all the time.
I am a very calm person. We dated for 5 years. Even with his character, I was still with him. Last year, when he was talking about marriage, I wasn’t comfortable with the conversation. Fast forward to the end of last year when we broke up. He cheated on me that same day and always accused me of cheating on him wrongly while he was the one cheating on me. That same day, I angrily talked and swore at him while crying that he is a disgrace to his family, that he is a very useless person who’s always fucking around.
He beat the hell out of me that day, and I landed in the hospital. After that day, my mom and elder siblings went to his house and scattered everywhere. They came with soldiers, they beat him massively, and then told him to stay away from me, that he shouldn’t come and beg me again, that he shouldn’t even hear me. I’m very thankful to them. May God Almighty bless them for me. The boy beat the hell out of me, he wounded me. I’m still recovering. The doctor had to patch my face. The issue took almost 3 weeks before it ended. Alhamdulillah for the successful breakup.
The issue now is, he’s spoiling my name to people, saying I don’t have a womb anymore, that I had many abortions for him. I have been thinking about my terrible mistakes. I couldn’t even tell anyone, not even my mother, despite being very close because I know the kind of mother that I have. She hates abortions. I had to keep it to myself. I cry every day for doing abortions in this life. Please help. What should I do to forget this? Help. My ex is after my life with these words.
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