I am 23 years old and I have never had a boyfriend in my life. It’s not as if there’s anything wrong with me. I’m not ugly and I’m currently working as a medical doctor. I’ve had multiple guys ask me out but I’ve never been interested in any of them, and I’m the kind of person that can never ask a guy out. I feel like it’s because I prayed to God when I was younger for the first guy I date to be my husband. I’ve been praying to God to send a good guy my way for five years now, and each time I do I dream and see myself marrying a guy I know. And it’s a particular guy each time. The whole thing is confusing me because I’m not even close to this guy. We went to the same school; he’s handsome and I crushed on him in my first year, but the crush didn’t last long because he had a girlfriend. Since then, I’ve had several crushes and talking stages but never a relationship. Something weird happened when he messaged me all of a sudden after not being in contact for years. I thought God was finally going to bring us together. But we only had one conversation, and when I tried to message him again, he didn’t reply. I let that go.
Then he called me when I was offline, so I messaged him when I came online and he didn’t reply. Then he messaged me again asking me for something which I didn’t have, and since then nothing. The whole thing is just confusing me. When I started praying for a husband, I didn’t have him in mind. I liked someone else and prayed for God’s guidance. If not for the dreams, I honestly wouldn’t care about him at all. I want to forget about him, but I keep feeling like I’m rejecting God’s choice for me. The thought of dating other guys feels like I’m going against God’s choice, but on the other hand, what if it’s all just in my head and I might miss out on the right person. Since the dreams started, I’ve kept it to myself. I’m just so confused right now. I need spiritual guidance but I feel embarrassed to talk to someone else about this issue. That’s why I’m putting it out here anonymously. If there’s any advice you can give me, please help a sister out.
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